A Time for Everything

I have been reflecting a lot this week on what my life was like last year. I started thinking about it after I went to a Habitation service last Sunday night at my church. Habitation is a once a month church service that has extended worship time and  deeper teaching.  I try to not ever miss it. So on this particular one, they announced that they were “throwing a party” and the body (the church) was going to meet the needs of one another. They asked everyone to pray and then stand if you had a need that needed to be met, OR if you wanted to give to someone else that had a need.

I prayed and felt like God said I was going to give.

I sat there and watched people stand around the auditorium.  Some people stood immediately and just started sobbing, others waited a few minutes and hesitantly stood.  I sat in my chair and cried watching them because last year I was that person that would have stood.   I remember many times that I walked into Habitation with some major needs and feelings of hopelessness and exhaustion.  Our family had a rough year and went through some difficult times financially.  I could go on and on about all the things that happened to us last year but I will spare you the details.  I will say this much, if you know me personally you probably saw me climbing out of the back of my old minivan at some point last year due to the drivers door being completely smashed in with a shower curtain taped over the window. Yeah, it was one of those kinds of years.

So as I sat at habitation, I was just overwhelmed as I thought about the changes in our lives since then.  We have had some major breakthrough’s this year!  I am not driving that minivan anymore, we got to relocate to Keller which is where my husband and I both grew up and is where we have always wanted raise our family, and God has provided me with more work than I could have ever imagined! Also, my  husband switched locations in his job and God has increased and given him more favor in his work as well. Things are SO much better than they were…

I  sat in church and thought about all of this and prayed for breakthrough in each and every situation in the room and thanked God for his faithfulness in my life and also thanked Him in advance for what He was going to do in all of their lives as well.

So fast forward to this morning, I was out running on the Bear Creek Trails.  I started at a spot I don’t normally start at but wanted to try a new way.  As I was running, God spoke something to me that goes along with the reflecting I have been doing this week. (I told ya’ll God speaks loudly to me when I run.) So I start my run and I am thinking in my head, (I give myself pep talks when I run) You got thisYou’re doing great. This is easy, you have a good pace, etc…. 

I get about a mile into my run and I see that this one part of the trail that has been under construction forever, is now open and connects you to the rest of the trails so you can run further. I went on many runs on this trail last fall/winter and it had been closed. I was so excited to see that it was open and all of the sudden there are like 5 walkers in front of me taking up the entire trail, and seem to be going so SLOW! So I get a little annoyed, and in my head, I am saying, Come on, move it people, I am running, I have a good pace going here, your messing me up. I get around them and I hear this whisper in my spirit, “You might be running now, but you were a walker last year.”  I start thinking about all the running I did last year, and I remembered for some reason, it was SO much harder last year for me to physically finish a run.  I walked A LOT. All of the sudden, I started crying right there on the trail as I was running.

I realized that the things I went through last year even affected my running, I was just so discouraged and it was too hard to give myself pep talks and run. I would try to run but always just give up and walk the trails. Looking back now,I am proud of myself for getting out there and at least walking. It’s a good thing I kept walking because that built a great foundation for me to start running this year. I needed to walk for awhile and build up endurance for this season where I am running. God just started dowloading all this to me on my run, he reminded me that not only was I a walker, there were times I felt like someone blindfolded me and I had no idea where to put my foot down for the next step.  Have you ever been in that season? Maybe you are now. Maybe you are going through something really hard financially, or physically, or emotionally.  Maybe you lost a job, or are going through a divorce, or a custody battle, or having marriage problems. Or maybe you don’t even know why you feel like you are in a season where you are dragging your feet, on this course where you are walking so slow and you don’t even know where you are headed. You can’t see the finish line at all, you are blindfolded with no idea what’s going to happen next. You hate the scenery, you are walking alone, and you are hopeless.

God reminded me today that it’s ok to be a “walker” for a season. 

The things I learned in that season last year, that were so rough and hard, I couldn’t have learned any other way.  What if I needed to walk a bit, to grow and gather wisdom and revelation from God so that in my next season I could RUN.  You don’t run before you walk. Can you imagine a baby learning to run before they walk?  It’s just not the order we learn.  If you are a “walker” in life right now, or you’re in a season where you have had to slow down, don’t be discouraged.

This season is crucial, embrace it.

While your slowly walking this path, I want to encourage you to quit dragging your feet or holding your head down, and start embracing life right where you are at. God wants to teach you things, and show you things in THIS season that you won’t learn in another one.  Look around you, enjoy the scenery and ask God what you can learn in this season.  Know that you will run before long, but you need to enjoy the walk before you start running.  Find the good in these moment’s you feel blindfolded and let God direct your steps and lead the way. He will guide you IF you let Him.  If you feel discouraged, tell Him and let Him encourage you.   If you feel hopeless and weak, just keep going. Do not stop. Do not sit down. Do not QUIT. Ever.

And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up. {Galatians 6:9}

If you are like me, and you are running easier now than you have in the past, don’t ever forget those long hard walks you took.  Don’t ever forget who get’s all the glory in your season of running.  Pray for those “walkers” around you. Encourage them, give to them, love them.  I am in a season where I am “running” but I am also training right now as well. Training is hard, and it requires a lot of discipline. God has been speaking to me a lot lately about priorities and reminded me that yes, he blessed me with all this work but I have to be a good steward of it and make sure that I keep him first and don’t get too busy in the blessing to stop and spend time with him.  I have to train myself to make time for Him, if I don’t, I may have to slow down and do a little walking again and retake some tests, so to speak.  No matter where you are at today, in your walk or run, embrace it, be thankful for it, even if you think it’s horrible and you don’t see an end in sight. I promise it’s just a season. God promises in his word that he has great plans for your life.  He won’t leave you here, I can testify to that.

A Time for Everything {Ecclesiastes 3}
3 For everything there is a SEASON,
  a time for every activity under heaven.
 A time to be born and a time to die.
 A time to plant and a time to harvest.
 A time to kill and a time to heal.
 A time to tear down and a time to build up.
 A time to cry and a time to laugh.
 A time to grieve and a time to dance.
 A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
  A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
  A time to search and a time to quit searching.
  A time to keep and a time to throw away.
 A time to tear and a time to mend.
  A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
  A time to love and a time to hate.
  A time for war and a time for peace.

Written by Jennifer Bellamy

2 thoughts on “A Time for Everything

  1. I remember when your motto was “slow and steady wins the race”… I love how you have applied your walking and running in such a practical way in our daily life and seasons and made it so applicable! Love this so much! Great writing!

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