Stand Up for Your Baby

pregnancytestLast summer I was living in Columbus, Ga while my husband was finishing up his training for the United States Army. I got to see him almost every weekend, give or take what his Sergeants would let them do. We had talked about having another baby in the future but certainly not anytime soon. We already have a beautiful daughter and things were going pretty well in our lives.

As I began packing up the apartment we were living in at the time, I came across a pregnancy test. I laughed and decided to to take it just for fun even though I knew there was no way I was pregnant. I took the test, looked at it for a split second and was about to throw it away until I saw two lines appear. I had to rub my eyes and make sure I was seeing the correct results. My heart sunk to my stomach.

I dropped to the floor and just started crying.

Yes, I am married and my life is stable but I just did not want another baby. My daughter had just turned one and we were getting ready to move to a new duty station. The timing was just not good for another baby. My husband was at work so I couldn’t talk to him until 5 pm that night. When I finally had the chance to tell him the news, he was so excited. I remember getting mad at him for being happy because I wanted him to agree with me on just getting an abortion. Regardless, I had it set in my mind that I was going to do it … an abortion.

I got on the internet and googled all these women clinics in Atlanta. I found a place, made an appointment and had my mind set. I usually talked to my Embrace Grace alumni girls all the time, but I distanced myself from them because I didn’t want them to change my mind. I wanted so badly to reach out for help because in my heart, I knew what I was doing was so wrong. I would get my cell phone and go to Amy’s name wanting to call her but couldn’t get the courage to do it.

One night in an emotional moment, I finally decided to text her and told her everything.

She was incredibly supportive. No judgment, no mean words, she just listened and then spoke from her heart. We texted and talked on the phone on conference call with my husband. One statement that she said said to him that stood out to the both of us was:

“Stand up for your baby.”

My husband called me back after we had gotten off the phone with Amy and said, “Kaylee, I love you and I support you in whatever you do, but that is my baby and I am not going to allow you to go through with this. I am going to stick up for my baby.”  Amy had really impacted his heart. I laid in bed that night so confused on what to do. I kept hearing those words over and over,  “Stand up for your baby.”

The day of my appointment came. I woke up got ready and left for Atlanta. Amy had called me but I ignored her call. (sorry Amy) I arrived to the building and had to be escorted in by security guys. It was the most creepiest, cold, dark, place I had ever been to. I looked around at everyone in the clinic and it was like everyone looked so sad. I was balling my eyes out while filling out my paper work.

The nurse looked at me and said, “You’re doing the right thing baby girl.” I remember thinking to myself, Just leave Kaylee … Just leave. As I was waiting for the ultra sound tech to come get me, I kept asking God to give me a sign and He was definitely giving them to me …

First sign :: Amy called me again while I was there and left me a message saying, “Don’t do it.  I love you. Your baby loves you and needs you.”

Second sign :: I went back to the sonogram room and the tech had a hard time finding my baby. It was like he was trying to hide from the ultra sound. I laid there crying and just overwhelmed with so many thoughts. I finally said, “I can’t do this!” I got up and walked out.

Third sign :: On my way home I stopped for gas and for some reason the pump randomly stopped pumping on $11.11 Whoa. 11.11 My EG people know why that is a sign. {yes we do check out Salina’s blog here to read about it}.

As time went on, I began to feel at peace about my choice to keep my baby. As the months went by, I began to get more and more excited about my baby BOY. The devil had been after my son from the very beginning. I say this because one doctor told me he was not going to survive outside of my womb. Another doctor said he had major problems and sent me to all these different doctors for more testing.

Not only was the devil trying to kill my baby with an abortion, but he was also trying to mess with my mind and scare me into thinking my child was not going to be healthy or worse, not survive. I knew in my heart my son would be okay though.

On May 17th, 2013, I laid eyes on my sweet, HEALTHY baby boy. I was in love. I am so incredibly thankful I chose life for my baby! I fall more and more in love with him everyday. He is perfect and not a thing wrong with him.

I want to thank Amy for being such a supportive person during that scary time for me. If it were not for her, I honestly do not know what would have happened. My family is complete for now. I have two beautiful babies. Graclyn and Tanner and an amazing husband. Life is good and I am a happy mama =)

Written by Kaylie Moore

4 thoughts on “Stand Up for Your Baby

  1. Kaylie,
    I love you soooo much and am so thankful that you chose LIFE for your precious baby Tanner! You asked God for signs and He came through with so many!! 11:11 baby.. love it!!

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