My Little Daisy

shutterstock_154346732I am 21 years old and a single mom of a little girl named Daisy. Daisy is one and a half and lives life with a smile on her face and joy in her heart. When I was 19, me and my
boyfriend at the time broke up due to me truly wanting to live life better and not the way we were. Two weeks later I found out I was pregnant and his only response was he wanted me to get rid of it. When I showed him the sonogram of the baby, he laid the money down for an abortion and walked out and never turned back. I spent my whole pregnancy trying to truly figure out “why me, ” etc. My pregnancy became very high risk. I fell down the stairs at 16 weeks, bleeding out a lot. At that point Daisy was ready to come and the doctors had to stop all labor – putting me on bed rest. At 29 weeks I was hospitalized and found out Daisy was very small inside me and 3 pounds under weight than what she should have been. Her heart rate was dropping and I was told the worst and prepared for a stillborn birth. But somehow Daisy pulled thru once again and we were able to go home. At 36 1/2 weeks I was in horrible pain and at a sonogram appointment. The doctors found she was no longer moving inside me, her heart rate dropped once again and my contractions shot up. My doctor admitted me and then began an emergency c-section. Not knowing if my baby girl was coming out alive or not I waited with tears down my face and when I finally heard her soft cry I somehow knew life was going to be just fine. This past year as a single mom has been long and tough at times. I work full-time to provide for all her needs living on our own. We don’t have much support and not much family who cares to care. We attend church on Sundays and Wednesday and have an amazing church family who walk this walk with us. Life can be tough having to be mom and dad and the good and the bad never knowing if what you’re doing is right, but we truly live life trusting fully in God for all our needs and capturing every moment of every breath that we take. I have days where I feel like super mom and days where I just wanna hide and cry but at the end of each day my baby girl’s kisses and hugs make this daily walk that much easier. The minute my daughter was born my life changed completely. The lonely nights grew warmer and all I could do was smile and want to show her to the world. For if all my life I failed I knew she was the one thing I did right. She has changed me so much and made me a better person. She has opened the eyes of my heart and made me a less selfish person. Not a day goes by that I don’t enjoy spending it with my princess for she is the happiness in my world. Life started over with her and I’m so blessed for what I’ve been given.

Written by Desiree Joyner

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s