The other day I started thinking about my story. My story feels unique although I know a lot of girls have been where I’ve been. I started wondering about how I would tell my son one day about my story. It’s sensitive yet beautiful. It made me who I am today.
I would never tell him, “You were never wanted or you are a mistake.” Even though he was unplanned, God planned him. God loved me so much, He gave me a son.
He may have not been planned but he was always wanted. He was a blessing in disguise. I can’t lie and say that abortion and adoption never crossed my mind. The thought (or lie) would creep in sometimes but then God would speak his Truth in Love to me. Love won. I’m so happy about the choice I made for life and to parent. I went through Embrace Grace and it helped me so much to connect even more to God during that season – pressing in to Him in a new and beautiful way.
God saved me from my past by giving me a new life to live for. Drugs, partying, late nights at the club, driving when I know I shouldn’t have been, and crazy after-parties at different people’s apartments. I could have ended up in jail, homeless, DEAD. But I didn’t … instead God captured my attention by giving me new life.
I will never forget the day I found out I was pregnant. I didn’t cry or freak out right away – it was a slow process to let it sink in and fully accept how my life would now be different. My first thought was, “Now what do I do?”
Honestly, there was a part of me deep down in my heart that wanted a little baby to hold and to take care of. To think of a sweet baby to love and to be loved by, made my heart melt, even though I was so scared about how everything would work out.
Before, all my focus was on my party life and I consistently went down the wrong path and always choosing the wrong thing. But now, I wanted to do something right. Not for me, but for my son. He gave me a new perspective and outlook. This tiny little bean inside of me wrecked me in the most amazing and beautiful way. I now had to live life for this little one. My son Tyler is the biggest and best blessing I could ever ask for. He may not know it yet but one day he’ll know that he saved my life. He is all I could ever ask for. My son has given me more motivation than I have ever had before. He is a gift from God. I will never be able to thank him enough. My son is a hero in my eyes.
Some people may think of a celebrity or an athlete as a hero or maybe a president or a friend. Mine is someone who saved my life, my future and he’s no more than 3 ft tall.
Definition of hero: a person who is admired or idealized for courage, outstanding achievements, or noble qualities.
He may not be admired by many, but he is definitely admired by me. He may not be famous or a huge famous celebrity, but he’s my star. My light. My everything.
Written by Megan Pelon