Butterfly Kisses

IMG_1787I know what it feels like to have an unplanned pregnancy. I remember all the emotions and feelings, the worry and fear – and I love how God came through for me when I needed him. He knew just what I needed – a baby, to draw my heart to Him and Embrace Grace helped point me there. My baby girl was the best unexpected blessing I could have ever received. I married the father of my baby, the love of my life and we have 2 beautiful children together.

My husband Brad is leaving for boot camp in July of this year. So we have had many family talks about our future, what I need to look forward to, and what we can do to make this the easiest on our two girls Blakelee (3) and Blair (1).

We have been wanting to get pregnant again, so we started trying. I know you are probably thinking we are crazy and we have no idea what we are doing since my husband is leaving for boot camp and then going straight to Officer Candidate School right after, but we have had many family talks about this, and we came to agreement that yes it might be hard, but we don’t know where we will be a year from now, away from family and Brad could possibly be deployed. So we decided we should start trying before he left. I have help from our family and they will be here for the birth of our new baby.

Months went by and I wasn’t conceiving. I was talking to my friend Morgan (Moe) a lot, and she just kept pressing into me that if it’s in God’s plans for us to have a baby then it would happen but I needed to be patient and not get discouraged. It would all workout the way it was suppose to. I thought to myself, wow how selfish am I being? I am getting upset because I’m not getting pregnant as fast as I hoped, but not one time have I prayed and given this to God.

So I prayed. I prayed hard.

But I never asked to get pregnant. I just prayed “Lord, if this is in your plans for our family, please let this be, but if its not in your plans for our family, please give me the strength to not be discouraged.”

About a week later, I’m outside at work, and a little friend wouldn’t leave me alone. He just kept coming to say hello! He landed on me and wouldn’t leave. I didn’t want him too. So I got my phone out and started snapping pictures. It was a beautiful butterfly. As the butterfly was fluttering by and landed on my stomach, I just got this overwhelming feeling, NEW BEGINNINGS! Oh, I was so excited. I ran inside to tell Brad (we work together), and he laughed and said that’s really awesome, but I didn’t want to get my hopes up. But I kept thinking how does that just happen?!

I called Moe on my lunch break, to ask if it was too early to take a pregnancy test, she said she thought I should wait. So I waited a few days and then 5 days before my missed period I bought a digital pregnancy test, I came back to work and took it. I waited for like 20 minutes (it felt like) to have a “not pregnant” staring back at me. I was bummed but I was okay with it. I felt like I had my peace that I had prayed about so I thought this is not my time. Brad and I also agreed that if I wasn’t pregnant we would stop trying because we didn’t think that it was in the plans for us.

Mothers Day came and I got up and was fixing breakfast for everyone. I had just picked my brother up on Friday from being in Afghanistan since September and I thought to myself, what more could I be thankful for on Mother’s Day? What an amazing day.

After fixing breakfast I went to the restaurant and thought maybe I’ll just take one last pregnancy test even though I knew deep down, it would be another negative. I could hear Blakelee and Brad playing outside the bathroom door, and when I went to get up I looked over and saw “PREGNANT”!!!!!!! I screamed, “BRAD!!!!!!” I ran out of the bathroom and told Brad I’m pregnant! I’m really pregnant! We were so overjoyed and happy! We got to tell everyone on Mothers day that they were going to be grandmas again! It was honestly the most happy mothers day I have experienced!

God hears you, don’t think he doesn’t. And that butterfly was my answer that he was blessing me. I’m so thankful for a mighty and true Father! We are truly blessed. I have also learned to be patient and listen. Listen for His voice because you will hear Him. He knows what we need and hears our deepest cries. He just wants us to cast our cares and burdens to Him.

Psalm 127:3
Children are a gift from the LORD; they are a reward from him.

Thank you Jesus for blessing our family. I love you so much!

Written by Brooke Davidson, EG alumni

 

 

2 thoughts on “Butterfly Kisses

  1. Brooke you are such a beautiful mommy! I love that you were blessed with the joyous news of being pregnant on Mothers Day!! What a special gift of love sent from heaven above! I love you so much and your precious little ones too!! Xoxo

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